twiggy’s blog

Wow, it’s been a long time since I’ve posted anything to this blog. Thanks for reminding me Mr. G!

Well, what’s to say?

I still post on my xanga blog (for some reason I couldn’t quite get away from posting there). As for present life; lets make a small update. Not too much has changed, I’m still the same person… just older, wiser, and sometime this year I made a decision to rid myself from alot of negative forces on my life. I resigned from my admin post. I suppose people look at this as a symptom of withdrawl from the things I used to do. I wasn’t running away or anything, I simply decided I was tired of fighting other’s battles for them, and not recieving the same respect. Emotionally, I’m kind of like a sponge. People tend to come to me for a shoulder to lean on, or some words of advice; after a long time this impacts me in a negative way. I started realizing that people need to figure things out on their own, just like I do.

I started gaming alot more, and I joined a really nice guild in Guild Wars, and made a ton of new friends, and got to be an officer. Strangely it put me right back in the position…I’d left behind. God has a sense of humour doesn’t He? Or is it “fate is without a sense of irony?” to quote a certain guy. If I had an xbox 360 and a good internet connection, you’d probably find me on there too. Otherwise I enjoy playing my psp, and guitar hero on PS2. Anyway, I still do artwork; and am considering trying to make some money from it. This is probably a lost cause, but I’ll think on it some more. My boyfriend visited me in November of last year and stayed until January of this year. We had a nice time, though it was a bit hectic at times — as we ended up playing house and nursing sick people (including myself again). Hey, and here I thought you only “played house” when you’re kids… *snickers*. My dog also fell off a couch in her sleep and injured her spine (people’s talk of possibilities regarding my beloved dog put me into hysterics). I stepped forward and provided a large sum of cash to pay for her medical care, and she is recovered nicely from it. We did at least find time to go on a romantic, if not pretty kooky, date.  It’s so strange when he has to go back home. It took me 11 months just to put away the extra bed, and put stuff away… I didn’t want to touch anything. Yes, I miss him that much.

Family life is still the same. Stress. More stress. More of me thinking please get me out of this mental ward. Because that’s what it’s really like sometimes. My sister got married in the summer, leading me to make a promise to myself that when I get married it will be nothing like that.

It is now the holidays again…..and my financial situation is as bleak as ever. At the present moment it is snowing, something that I absolutely love.  I am still that person with hopes and dreams..and I know it’ll all work out somehow. It’s just slow. Hey neat, there’s a word count on this thing… 575 so far.. well I am rather long-winded aren’t I? There’s promise I will see my darling again this spring, and if it goes to plan I’ll be getting the hell out of this place for a little vacation of my own (and maybe even see you Mr. G. so I won’t be that kooky girl you always hear about but never see.)

Well…what else? Hmm.. I am still an avid watcher of animes, foreign films, Heroes and Lost, and I love shoes.

My life is pretty simple; it’s full of hopes and dreams as probably most people my age have. Some would say I’m every bit a loner, with nothing much exciting going on. I usually enjoy gaming as a hobby that takes up way too much of my time, heh. When I’m not gaming, I’m writing about the things I enjoy the most e.g.; theology, history, or philosophy… or I’m creating artwork both graphic art and digital mediums. A big goal is to one day be a librarian, not something your average person would aspire to I suppose, but the job fits me so well.

I have few friends, most of them live very far away from me; and most of them I’ve met from an internet community I joined about five years ago, which I now administrate. These are such very dear people to me, and a few I’ve had the pleasure of meeting. I have been so blessed to also be in love with an amazing man who I adore. Our only problem is that we live across an ocean from eachother. But of course, you must be wondering how such a long distance relationship could work? It’s because we’ve made it work for us. Lots of visits across that ocean to see me and my family, over the course of two years now? Heh, I’ve lost count. This is very expensive to do, but well worth the wait and effort. My hope is to also make such a trip and do the whole ‘meet the parents’ thing; before we start the really serious business of figuring out which country we’ll be staying in on a permanent basis. And we will do it ya know? Just takes time.

I live with my family for now, in a fairly nice house near the river way out in the middle of nowhere. It took pretty much life savings, and begging and borrowing to get here; but it had to be done. It’s a big change for a city gal. Yeah, I was born in the inner city, and lived there for most of my life. I like the pace of it, the buildings and the lights.. the energy. Here, everything is different though..a different energy. Nature is abundant, and speaks with an elegance and beauty; perfect for some R&R, but lacks in the closeness in the humanity department.

As I said before, I’ve had a few other blogs; xanga and myspace. Xanga has been a home for several years now, but myspace is something of a disappointment. Too camera attention whore and creepy. Nothing seriously minded… nothing I could write at length on and expect any other response but “hey ur sooo hawt leik do me!” Not my style. I rather like wordpress, it saves as you’re typing, the skins are wonderful, and the bloggers are intelligent.

Well hello, this is me; you can call me Twiggy, or Cagey. I’ve been blogging in the xanga community for a while now; and thought it was high time I created a more professional blog. Something that I could really place my more long-winded thoughts on life and the universe. I’ll be posting more here in the future, so be on the lookout.